Confused :/

ok so sometimes being confused can be fun...at least it can make people laugh....but right now i dont know what to think...most people who will read this will probably have no clue as to what im talking about....it may seem like a vague topic but there's specifics behind every thing im saying....i wish sometimes i could just understand right away whats best for me...i hate being in a state of confusion like i am. you know..the kind of confusion where a part of you says this, and another part says just the opposite. it's difficult....like being the rope in a game of tug-o-war....things that happened in the past that brought you pleasure and pain, but you're not sure which was greater....*sigh* enough of my ranting......ill have to make up my mind eventually.....i just hope i make the right decision....guess i just gotta do what God wants me too, and remember (as Rev. Stevenson would say) God is not the author of confusion. He knows what to do. I'm hoping i can figure that out too. Getting to that decision is the hard part....ok now im really done =) seeming as though i said enough of my ranting 5 lines above this...haha.........................ugh......its 12:08, i've been up since 7 AM....im tired.....goodnight